& i know it.

last night i got into an accident that basically destroyed my car. I got hit by a BMW, which in turn caused me to swerve and hit another car. In RESULT OF THAT, i lost control of my car, and spun out. Before I knew it, i felt my car flip, and it felt like forever, if not hella times, into a ditch. The moment i felt the car stop, I opened my eyes & there I was hanging upside down in my car. i freaked. i screamed. I screamed for help, hoping that someone stopped & might hear me. I tried to look for my phone (upside down) & all i felt was glass. I tried to look around, but I was restricted. i cried. I made an attempt to roll down my window, but it was stuck. I freaked out & screamed & cried even more. I was afraid that i'd never get out. I felt trapped. Eventually I managed to get the window down and slid out. As I sat next to my car, it felt like the world was hella loud, but quiet at the same time. I couldn't make sense of the noises, it sounded distant, yet.. the traffic and the wind was so loud, i couldn't think. I wanted to reach back in to find my phone & my purse, but I was too scared.. too freaked out. At some point, I heard the distant ringing of my phone. It was slightly under the car so i reached and got it.. and from there.... well.. basically my just freaking out & and trying to calm down.

As I was talking to Ronald.. he was trying to find me.. Of course he didn't see me cause my car & I were in the side-ditch of a freeway at 11 o'clock at night.. but as a calmed down w/ Ronald.. I turned to look at my car, and MY CAR, my poor poor carrr... It was upside down against a wall. the front side was wiped off and the backside of my car was kinda smoking. but it was UPSIDE DOWN... i freaked. i cried. i screamed some more. Ronald stayed with me on the phone the whole time.. trying to find me on the side of the freeway.. Eventually, I called Benson (cause he had called me, being on of the cars I was with) then I called Kimmy, then my dad. my dad.. yelled at me. Told me to shut the fuck up & calm down. He then told me that he can give a fuck & the i was to take care of myself. By then Benson had found me, & i cried..

Ronald had lead the firetrucks to my location. As Benson found me, they were pretty much behind him. & from there.. i couldn't move. they wouldn't let me. I must've looked crazy. I was crying so hard, & the firemen were strapping me down to the flatboard. my neck, my head, my arms, and legs.. all strapped down. then hello, ambulance & paramedics. GOODBYE CLOTHES. after the cop asked me some questions adn made me breathe into that thinggg, the paramedics cut my clothes off and stuck needles into my arm as they asked more questions. I don't see how they understood me with an oxygen mask on, but they did. Eventually, i was transported all the way back to Regional Hospital. & from there.. well... i hated it, and it was a scary experience..

Laying there, with wires coming from numerous spots of my body, I just thought about what happened. I cried some more. The staff thought I was in pain, but I was just scared. I was still shaking. I wanted my mom. After a while, I realized how fucking lucky I am. To come out of that kind of accident, barely scratched. Sure i had some pain, but that's nothing to compared to what they expected of me. When my mom came, I cried alot more. I apologized. I wanted to hug her and tell her i loved her. I was SCARED. Eventually, Kim came to see me, and she gave me a hug. just what i needed. we laughed and i told her what happened. i luh you betch. :] she helped, and i was grateful she came. We talked and laughed. made the whole thing alot easier. I asked her to get Ronald, so Ronald came and we talked for a while. Before I knew it, it was already 1. Ronald told me that Kim left the room, laughing cause I was just laying there laughing with her. haha, :] funny thing huh ? I talked to Ronald, & i cried more. (yes i did lots and lots of crying that night) he told me what happened from his point of view & it's not considered reliable or whatever. Him being my friend and all. and yea... i felt so bad, i ruined everyone's night. we were on our way to go bowling, &... i ruined it. i'm so sorry guys. :[ Okay, so.. basically. I stayed there for another good hour or so, being monitored, and after checking that i was ok & that i can walk.. i was released....



i cried, thinking.. things could've been worse, but it wasn't. LUCKILY, no one else from the accident was hurt, just me. But even so, I came out with minor stuff. I'm alive. I'm okay. I'm freakkin' lucky.


Thanks to everyone that came, stayed & waited. You guys didn't have to, but you guys did anyway. i love you guys so so much, it helped knowing you guys were there.. && Im so so sorry, i ruined your night, i couldn't help but think about it as I laid there in the hospital...

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